Archive for July, 2010

July 27, 2010

Jadeite

Blogging procrastination. I’ll write now, or in a few, or tomorrow…maybe never? NEVER!

One day at a time. Being a person just recently diagnosed with ADHD, sometimes I have to purposely slow myself down, take a breath, and realize what the hell is going on. What the hell is going on?

Well I never made that jam. But I did pick seven pounds of blueberries. And I never finished those shorts… They look like they didn’t work out. I have no idea what the hell happened. BLAME IT ON THE ADHD. (or not). I AM going to finish the chair I began to re-upholster. And it will be fantastic. It will be like jadeite kitchenware, timeless with modern spunk.

I’ve had a major falling into things in the past. Art School. Nanny School. Every new job. Prescriptions. All were going to save me from myself. I don’t know what has happened to me recently, but I am happy. I want to give, and live, and love, and be. Yes, I don’t finish a lot of things. And I’m very good and starting many things, but I like giving and living and loving. I love a lot. He makes me be. Settle then float. After five years I’ve learned to be. And no one else could give me that.

What I am amused by now, mostly, is the expectations of everyone is nowadays. What did you want then, and compared to now?  Wither away and here I’ve composted.  Growing in the corner of everything is my self-made self. Homemade butter, handpicked blueberries, self-taught sewing,  alone read blogs, and practiced failing art of being one.  I shouldn’t care and go on to silliness.

By the way… Agriculture is so much cooler than art school.

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